It stings, but he can't help feeling Lan Zhan is right to be so blunt. If he'd known A-Yuan was still alive, things might have been different, but it doesn't change what's happened. Doesn't change that he's left Lan Wangji another of his troubles to fix. He forces a smile anyway, even if it doesn't reach his eyes.
"Ah- right, you're right. I didn't... I'm glad he had you," he says finally. He deserves much more than I could have given him, he thinks.
"That must have been difficult."
The last part hits the hardest though. If A-Yuan- no, Lan Sizhui doesn't remember, then...
"Oh. I... It's best he doesn't remember that place, I'm sure," he adds with a soft smile that grows harder to keep with each passing moment. His knuckles have gone white where he grips the glass of iced tea. It hurts, but honestly, it's such a small memory in the boy's life anyway. Much better for him to grow up happy, with many friends, than to recall bitter memories digging in the dirt with the last remnants of a despised people.
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"Ah- right, you're right. I didn't... I'm glad he had you," he says finally. He deserves much more than I could have given him, he thinks.
"That must have been difficult."
The last part hits the hardest though. If A-Yuan- no, Lan Sizhui doesn't remember, then...
"Oh. I... It's best he doesn't remember that place, I'm sure," he adds with a soft smile that grows harder to keep with each passing moment. His knuckles have gone white where he grips the glass of iced tea. It hurts, but honestly, it's such a small memory in the boy's life anyway. Much better for him to grow up happy, with many friends, than to recall bitter memories digging in the dirt with the last remnants of a despised people.