[He manages to maneuver so that at least he is on his back and comfortable with Lan Wangji on top of him. He wraps his arms around the other and nuzzles into his hair.
Ever since being back..after that terrible encounter with the twins..he has done nothing but drink and try to forget. As many combinations of drinks and drugs that people seem to be giving him has been consumed to the point where the last week has been nothing but a fog. He can see the many bottles of Emporer's Wine on the table across the room but he doesn't really need them. He still feels rather drunk from the party and the indulgence tea.
As he breaths in the scent of Lan Wangji, enjoys the feeling of his body on top of his, he almost gets granted a way to forget. But then he remembers seeing the man's name on that terrible list and his grip on his tightens as the fear in his heart starts to return. He clings to this man, not wanting to ever let him go...the twins teased him about being alone...he never wants to be that way again.]
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Ever since being back..after that terrible encounter with the twins..he has done nothing but drink and try to forget. As many combinations of drinks and drugs that people seem to be giving him has been consumed to the point where the last week has been nothing but a fog. He can see the many bottles of Emporer's Wine on the table across the room but he doesn't really need them. He still feels rather drunk from the party and the indulgence tea.
As he breaths in the scent of Lan Wangji, enjoys the feeling of his body on top of his, he almost gets granted a way to forget. But then he remembers seeing the man's name on that terrible list and his grip on his tightens as the fear in his heart starts to return. He clings to this man, not wanting to ever let him go...the twins teased him about being alone...he never wants to be that way again.]