[His heart seizes in his chest at what those words could possibly mean.]

Technically..you didn't watch me die this time.

[No one but the twins saw that happen and it's probably for the best. But he knows that saying that might also put him on even thinner ice then he is already treading on. Even if Lan Wangji didn't physically see it take place, he knows that it did. Wei Wuxian doesn't know if anyone has told him how he died..or if it is up to him to share that story.]

I didn't seek it out..there was no way I would have gone in that room if I had known what the outcome would be. I don't want you to suffer because of my actions. Hurting you is worse then anything those dogs did to me.

[He almost chokes on his next words as they are leaving his mouth.]

Does this mean..you don't want anything to do with me now?