Lust, forgetful of future suffering, hurries us along the forbidden path

[scaredofdogs]

WHO: Wei Wuxian (novel) and You!

WHAT: Wei Wuxian has been given a lust tea..no one shall be spared!

WHEN: After the event ends for a week

WHERE: All around the hotel

NOTES: Content warnings: He's lustful..depending on who he encounters, things could get spicey. Feel free to meet him and give him a good slap if he gets too feely, or feel free to treat him to a drink to fulfill that need for company! And then tell him to get lost...

Wei Wuxian was glad he could see again. Being blind had been rather inconvenient, even if it could have been much worse. He's pretty sure not being able to talk would have been a much bigger inconvenience for him personally. So in a way he was thankful. He had also discovered several new parts of the building that he would have to find again, now that he could actually see what they looked like.

But when it was all over, there was an empty jar left in his room. He couldn't quite understand it at the time because it simply had a note from the lady of the hotel and the word "LUST" written on it. He just figured it was a unique gift and had set it aside as a decorative piece. But then later that day the feelings started and he realized that the hotel might be playing another trick on him. He hadn't eaten or drunk anything yet so he knew that it wasn't because of that.

He couldn't quite put his finger on it yet, but something was just a little off about him today. He found himself wanting..everything. Or was it everyone? He wasn't sure but he was going to have to be careful. A sensible person would have stayed in their room and tried to figure out what was going on, but Wei Wuxian could not stay contained in one spot for too long. So he was wandering the hallways.

All he knew was that he wanted food, drink and company in the worst way...

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[inquiryguqin]

Gently he lets his hand go, feeling his pain and his hurt. This one obstacle where Wei Wuxian always puts up a wall between him and others because of his actions. This same wall Lan Wangji put up, raised by discipline, rules, and routine and doing the right thing.

"What went through your mind that caused this fear? Don't be selfish. I can't forget. I never have forgotten you for all of these years. Don't ask me to forget. The light is meant to be shared and it's something I happily give."

Taking a deep breath, searching his words. "I don't deserve a second chance. I know you hated the rules and you wanted to run." He confessed. "I made you fear me. I…I lost my temper because I thought I lost you to the darkness and the drink, and everything else. I want you back because I cherished you, I truly do despite how many times you refused. If your place is dark, then...let me walk with you until it's dark. I don't think it would be so bad."

And anyway, the bar is the only place where they offer the strongest drink, so reluctantly, he's trying and attempt to tug Wei Wuxian back to the bar.

"Come back and let's go back. I'll take it all back if only you will."

[scaredofdogs]

Wei Wuxian shakes his head. He no longer wants to go in that place. Lan Wangji dumped his drink, accused him of wasting his life because of it. The last thing he wanted was to go back in there.

"You should go take care of your hand, Hanguang-Jun. You don't need to be drinking with a selfish fool."

Lan Wangji's words when he yelled hurt. And perhaps they hurt more because of who they came from. If it had been anyone else he would have shrugged it off, smiled and found a way to forget. But this is the one person whose words he takes to heart.

"Apologies can come another time. I..am not mad at you. Everything is my fault and I know it. But I can't just smile and shake it off right now."

He would like to but he needs to do some soul searching first. And the one thing he can't do is pretend everything is fine in front of Lan Wangji.

[inquiryguqin]

At his offer of a second chance, he's being rejected. Yet again. It's a feeling he was used to, accustomed to, an old pain that he knows so well. He hurt him and said things that he shouldn't have said and he can't take it back.

"Wei Ying..."

Heaving a sigh, seeing this is a time they have to part yet again to do some soul searching, and be apart to be alone again, and let him go.

"All right."

But then a pause, "Thank you for your help. When I lost my voice. Now I wish..." He hasn't said anything at all. All because he's jealous of him choosing the drink over him. "That you let me in as I have let you in."

Unable to stay any longer, tire of arguing with him and fighting with him, he turns to take his leave to give his friend some space, freedom, and reprieve of him.

[scaredofdogs]

The more Lan Wangji says, the more the stake in his heart gets pushed in. He's too broken at this moment to say anything more. Anything he says will just make things worse.

And so he starts walking. To where..he doesn't know. But he needs air. He needs space. He needs a chance to clear his head. None of which will happen in this spot. He wished there was a roof he could climb on top of so he could stare up at the stars and forget everything.

But that isn't possible here. So instead he just walks. He doesn't go back to his room. He has spent too much time in that place lately. He goes around the hotel, never actually seeing where he is going but rather just walking aimlessly as he tries to clear his head.

Eventually he will give up and return to his room, living in seclusion until he can gain the mental and physical strength to move on. Sometimes a haunting flute sound can be heard through the halls of the hotel as Wei Wuxian finds a quiet place to play. Sometimes he meditates and tries to find answers through silence. And sometimes he simply lays in bed and lets his emotions drain onto his pillow.

He will heal..in time.